hey guys.. aite so as you know i started talking to this guy and  i thought things were moving a little to fast for me.. well i am becoming comfortable with the amount of talking we do through out the day.. i dont feel like i am being smothered ... which is good.. but it seems like he is jumping the gun.. i wouldnt care if we both were jumping the gun..but it seems like everyone else is too.. they forget that i only know him for a month and we are just talking.. we havent even gone out on a date as he lives in the mid west and i am in NJ....

it seems that everyone is so caught up that they forget this.. i feel like i am the only one constantly reminding myself to stay grounded.. -- with the exception of a few good friends who tell me to take my time and not rush it... and also tell me to stay grounded...

i know he makes me happy so far and i would like to think i make him happy but at the same time .. we dont really know each other .. i tried to get out of him his past relationships ..but it didnt really work ..b/c i didnt have his full attention .. .. so i dropped the topic..

i dunno... i feel like i am standing still and everything /everyone is going about their business and mine... but i am stuck... i am not ready to let myself get lost in this relationship ..or to be relationship until i know what i am dealing with ...

i admit ... i like him but can u really like someone with out knowing them all that well?  i have some trust issues and i cant let my guard down...

so i decided i am going to escape for the weekend to a friends house and get away frm my family and phone... so i told him i going down to see my friend and that i wont really talk to him.. he got all sad cuz i wouldnt be really talking to him... i felt bad so i said fine u can call.. dont get me wrong.. i know i am gonna miss talkin to him.. but i think i need some time to myself to figure out things.. really to just step back and think..  about him and this job situation...

another thing that kinda has been bothering me is that i was talking to his sis-in-law and turns out i was vaguely mentioned ... but yet when i talk to him ... he is talking abt us ending up together... is there something i am missing?? u guys have any advice???  i was a little annoyed when i found that out.. i felt like maybe i am be setting myself up to get hurt again..  i dunnoo.. any thoughts?????????

this got really long ..really fast so let me go... leave ur thoughts